aerissss, there's a lot to consider in this fic. lu han introspection is really tricky and difficult to write imo because there are hidden layers and words left unsaid and too many nuances, and I like how you weren't afraid to dive into all of it. especially how we saw him through yixing's perspective, lu han's hard edges softened by yixing's patience and empathy. your descriptions of them both felt very intimate. Lu Han is an open book and free with his secrets, but that just means that everything else is decidedly off limits. I really love that observation. & this line: even if Lu Han has a hundred and one friends and a smile and a kind word for every person he passes, Yixing shares something special because THAT IS MY ENTIRE XINGLU HEADCANON. I want to believe that no matter what - despite the industry pressure, the (hopefully) long years ahead, the other people in their lives also deserving of their love & attention - they'll stay special to each other, that their friendship will always hold something significant, irreplaceable. I've been so starved for xinglu fic lately so this was very lovely to read ;~;